I always want to share what is true. I don’t like to mess around with what is not.
Here’s what is true for me lately:
I’ve been battling a recurring bladder infection for the past 6 weeks. It has brought with it extreme anxiety and panic attacks. My world has been turned upside down. I’ve had so many different antibiotics along with an anxiety medicine in my system I fear I will never feel normal again. I had a terrible reaction to one antibiotic that brought on nerve and back pain. Physical therapy has helped. I’ve been to urgent care, my doctor’s office, and even the emergency room (for what turned out to be my biggest panic attack yet) more times than I can count. I’m hoping I’m through the worst of it now, but I honestly don’t know.
I keep quiet and move along with life. I hesitate to share this post. Most people have no idea. School has started and it’s been a rough first month. Between my health issues, adding a kindergartner to the mix, and just getting into a routine, I am spent.
I am tired.
I have lost the desire to write. That saddens me. I love it here. I love the community. I pray it’s only temporary as I sort things out. What has surprised me is that although my ability to put thoughts to paper has escaped me, my creativity has not. I have picked up a quilt I was working on a couple of years ago, I have crocheted some much needed new washcloths, and I have started baking a bit again (the family cheers!).
So, I guess what is true for me is that maybe I am ever so slowly starting to return to my old self. These past 6 weeks have been painful and at times downright scary. What I’m finding is that my true self has been struggling for much longer than 6 weeks. Anxiety has plagued me for far longer than I thought.
I may be tired but I am a warrior. I am battling back. I will not let it define me, but I will allow it to shape me.
So thrilled to be joining with the Five Minute Friday crew again. It’s been a few weeks. Please join us and share what is true in your life right now.
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I spent much of my younger motherhood years listening to a lot of advice. I am a bookworm so I would check out all the books in regards to parenting and discipline. I would believe that the “experts” new best even though I never quite felt right about their certain approach.
It took me quite a few years to become comfortable with my own style of parenting. Years to stop obsessing about too much television, too many electronics, not enough books, too little discipline. Everything seemed to be telling me I was doing this mothering thing wrong. The negativity would get overwhelming.
Then I received the most important parenting advice I had ever heard:
Know your child and trust yourself.
We are inundated with information in this digital age. It’s always just enough to make you feel like a failure in just about every aspect of parenting and homeschooling. It’s so easy to feel like you don’t measure up.
I’m here to tell you that you’re doing just fine.
You are the only one who can determine what is best for your family. Sure, there are a lot of opinions and advice. Take what you feel comfortable with and discard the rest.
Your family is unique. Your kids are unique. There is no one like you. No one will discipline like you. Your curriculum won’t be used the same way, if you even use curriculum! You see and relate to the world through your own special lens. God made you that way. And it’s a good thing.
Know your child.
Now go and continue being awesome!
What is some parenting advice that has stuck with you through the years?
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Your kids need you.
They need to know that deep down they are loved. The need the reassurance that they are wonderful in your sight. Their quirks need to be celebrated. Their differences need to be embraced.
If your kids don’t receive encouragement, love, grace, and delight from you they will try to find it in the world. They will have a hole in their soul that may never be filled. They may never receive God’s love because they won’t know what real love looks like.
How glorious the splendor of the human heart that trusts that it is loved. ~Brennan Manning
Understand that kids are kids. They are immature. They will make a lot of mistakes. Don’t let anger and disappointment cloud your thinking. They are human beings who deserve as much love and grace as you do. Especially when they screw up.
Parenting is a God-sized responsibility. Some days are really hard. Some seasons are rough. There’s no way around it.
Never stop working for an honest and open relationship with your kids. They may push back, but they will know they are loved.
Always fight for the hearts of your kids.
They need you.
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Autumn, the year’s last, loveliest smile ~William Cullen Bryant
Long summer days that were filled with popsicles, Airsoft Gun Wars, pool days, and neighborhood kids running through the house have now given way to school days, regular bedtimes, and a lot more quiet – well, as much quiet as you can have with 3 kids!
I couldn’t be happier.
Don’t get me wrong, summer is so necessary for the kids and for me. Summer is what gets this homeschooling Mama through the long and sometimes difficult days of late winter.
Yet, come mid-August I am ready for the more scheduled days of fall. I’m ready for the weather to turn cool and the leaves to start putting on their annual colorful display. I am ready to have my kids back. I sometimes only see them for meals and bedtime when the neighbor kids come asking to play.
As we say goodbye to summer, I encourage you to take time to relish the memories: the family vacations, the weddings, the trips to the beach and the cookouts with friends. Maybe even put together a simple scrapbook with your kids (I love this idea!).
And then let’s joyfully head into the routine and beauty of the fall season.
What do you look most forward to in fall? Or, do you long for summer to return?
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Every time I choose patience with my kids instead of blowing up I am choosing to worship.
Each time I put aside what I am doing to get down to my kids’ level and listen to them I am choosing to worship.
Every minute I spend building my husband up instead of tearing him down with words I am choosing to worship.
Each time I listen to a friend pour out her troubles and really listen to what her heart is saying I am choosing to worship.
Every day that I choose gratefulness over grumbleness (new word!) I am choosing to worship.
Each time I look for the good in a situation, no matter how difficult it is, I am choosing to worship.
I write these words for all of us. I don’t always choose the path of worship. I fail time and time again. But every time I choose to pick my weary self up and try again I am choosing to worship.
And it is good.
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